I HAD PLANS THIS YEAR : a short piece of prose. 2020.

-By, Mrinalini Raj.

It was my birthday a couple of months ago. Already in my early 20s, this year I had plans to finally travel to Lucknow and Agra with friends. I was about to be a Postgraduate in English Literature by now, this June. I had plans with my NET certificate. I had plans for my career, my higher education.

And this article becomes one of the thousand others written during the Corona pandemic. What am I actually doing? Reading, watching rain from the window, reading some more, attending webinars, watching the sun from the window, attending lectures, conferences, reading a little more, watching birds from the window, cleaning the house, cooking, watching Shakespeare one moment, Kafka through a Ballet the next and watching windows from the window.

Do we have complaints? Are we responsible for what is happening in our lives? Is it even worth asking these questions? Is it any good looking back? Are we tired? Have we accepted it as the normal yet?

I don’t even want to answer them. I know I am not that sad, there is much more sadness I feel for others suffering right now, people losing their jobs, nowhere to go, no food to eat. I realise this isn’t even Black Death that was. This Is. I know I’ll get to read of this period for decades now. We all have this unstable touch to our lives. Slightly pained at our own conditions, slightly more at that of others.

So many of us have stopped looking at the rise of the Corona cases, which we checked daily for months initially. So many of us are worried over the policies, worried for the doctors/nurses, for the sanitation workers, for the police, for our parents working outside, for our own jobs.

My whatsapp status these days reads, ‘When in trouble and We can’t act, We hope’. This is very much of what I am believing in these days, which is helping me keep moving. I keep myself as engrossed in work as I can. So much has altered, we all have our own ways, our own opinions. Patience and hope are my keys to survival these days and they are quite effective for me. I don’t know how to end this article, maybe I’ll like to leave it in the middle, like all our lives are right now.

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  1. Ankur Mithal says:

    A lot has changed in a short period of time. I suppose there are messages in it for all of us. A personalised message each. But, if we think about t for a moment, when has the next moment been the same as the previous one?

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  2. Reblogged this on By the Mighty Mumford and commented:
    WE’RE ALL WITH YOU!

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  3. Amazing blog !🙂

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    1. Thank you 🙂

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  4. Frued says:

    The moon and the stars must be waiting for you through your window. Beautiful writing.

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    1. Thank you so much

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      1. Freud says:

        My mom is from India and she always uses to tell me how Indian culture praises Sun and Moon in everyday life, in worship, in horoscopes, and even your Bollywood songs, they romanticise them a lot. Since my childhood, I have been listening to her stories about how she also used to watch Sun and the Moon from her window, her poetries, and how she fell in love with them. And your post reminded me all that at once. Thanks a lot 🙂
        I read all your post, keep going. They are amazing.

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        1. Thank you. I am so happy you noticed my usage of the window, that was the picture I intended to create, so glad it reached you. Thank you so much.

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  5. Peter Klopp says:

    An interesting photo that increases my longing to travel again!

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    1. Thank you! The picture is of the Ganga River in Varanasi, India.

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  6. Kurian says:

    Beautiful post Mrinalini.
    Wishing all of us all the best

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    1. Thank you! Yes.

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      1. Kurian says:

        You are welcome Mrinalini

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  7. Divya mathur says:

    We won’t ditch our travel plans though.😂😂

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  8. Shambhavi Pandey says:

    It’s beautifully written.

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    1. Thank you Shambhavi ❤

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  9. KENDI KARIMI says:

    It’s true, among others, patience and hope are they key to our survival. I recently shared pieces of poetry that instill this hope and courage needed to face these times. You can look if you’d like.

    Overall, I too had travel plans, I too, am reading and meeting. But for now, to hope that we are able to rise from this all and have the courage to get past it is all we can do.

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    1. Thank you for going through. I went through your posts but am unable to engage in it due to device errors I guess. Ironically, we have all become so dependent on this technology which ditches us so often.

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      1. KENDI KARIMI says:

        Hope it’s an isolated incident. Would hate to have the website down without me knowing it. Let me check. Thank you fo the heads up.

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